Best weekend ever!

Some people have a husband.
Some people have a best friend.
And some lucky people have both.
So thankful I can be squeezed into the third group.


So last night, after starting our fourth movie of the day and realizing our cute bums had been permanently planted on our super comfy sectional all.day.long yesterday, all I could think was best weekend ever! Somedays all I want is to accomplish nothing. And, my friends, yesterday was that lucky day. We slept in. We snuggled. We smooched :) We vegged. We ordered in pizza (cuz it was just a pizza-kinda-night). We spoiled our pup. We talked. We listened to music. We napped. And we watched movies. And we entertained for a few in our messy house with clothes scattered about and blankets taking up temporary residence on the sofa and dishes in the sink. And I.didn't.care.one.bit!...because they're family and it doesn't matter with family. And we had a conversation about how this luxury day of lounging will be very few and far between once our future miniature arrives, so we savored each drop. And we agreed that we're ok with that. Annnnnnd the kicker...we-didn't-clean-a-thing! But best of all is I believe Champagne Thursday came early this week so tonight we're going to eat homemade-marinara with ravioli and sip peach champagne and be merry annnnnnd probably watch another movie.

Today, life is good :)

Because I want something light-hearted:

Most of my recent posts contain heavy words lately. Heavy words, followed by heavy sighs and even heavier decisions. So today - just for the sake of being lazy and wanting desperately to avoid anything that requires a decision - I am abandoning my thoughts and feelings. Instead, I offer you a light-hearted peek into this BIG heart of mine. Oh, lucky you :)

The phrase I overuse the most is:
OMG! (said like Oh Em Gee!)

Today, I am thankful for:
Diet Cherry 7Up (yes, I'm drinking soda and no, it's not Friday. ask me if I care...)

My best friend is:
my husband - I would be truly lost without him

One quirky thing about me is:
The sound of ice rattling in a glass of water (or moreso, Diet coke) is like music to my ears

This weekend I:
had a lazy day with my husband - we laid in bed all day, we napped, we watched a Chopped Championships marathon. it was magic

Something that worries me is:
fearing that we don't save as much money as we should.

On my night stand you would find:
a thermometer, a hairtie, a book and a pretty fabulous lamp

One irrational thing that really gets my blood boiling is:
when people say "oh, I know exactly how you feel" (because, you don't)

A bad habit I have is:
not recycling glass containers (for a multitude of reasons like nowhere to put them, it's a pain, etc...so yes, I am rapidly contributing to the landfill)

One of my most real fears is:
having a baby with down syndrome.

and on that note, over and out!

How do you know?

They say, as a Christian, you need to put your faith in God to provide. He is the one that knows the line between what I want and what I actually need. There is no doubt in my mind that God provides an abundance of blessings in my life. He knows exactly what I need when I need it. Along the road, He teaches me patience and in the end I always realize that His timing really is perfect. Although my God is a faithful God, I am also a firm believer in the idea that He helps those who help themselves. I do not want to knowingly catapult our family into the next stage of our lives at the risk of the timing being wrong. They say if you wait for the perfect time to have a baby, you'll never get there. Unfortunately, life happens and there isn't going to be a giant yellow lightbulb that switches on when the time is right. So the question that stems from my (our) frustration is...HOW THE HECK ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHEN THE TIMING IS RIGHT?!? How do you decipher what the little butterfly in your stomach really means - excitement for something new or the gut-feeling of stepping too far off the path?

The D Word

note: i started writing this post back in january, but it seems very appropriate right now.

***

In every marriage
more than a week old,
there are grounds for divorce.
The trick is to find,
and continue to find,
grounds for marriage.

I have been looking at quotes about marriage for couple days now. Besides the occasional funny quote about annoying ones spouse or marrying for money vs. love, most seem to be less than uplifting. Looking for a positive quote about marriage? Forget it. The quote above really resonated with me. Kevin and I have been together for over 7 years. I know it doesn't seem like much against those with 10, 15, 20 years under their belt (not to mention we've only been married for less than 2), it is a good deal of time for a couple of 26 year olds. Technically, yes, we are still in the honeymoon phase. But that's not a pitfall. I hope we're in this honeymoon stage for the rest of our lives.

Lately, it seems I am surrounded by couples (mostly friends from college/high school) that are calling it quits. Yep, the big D word: DIVORCE. In our pre-marital counseling, Kevin and I were challenged to remove the word from our marriage vocabulary. It was, and still is, our goal to be one of those couples that married for the right reasons, stay together for the right reasons, and build our lives together for the right reasons. Ultimately, we didn't want to just recite our vows, we wanted to live them.

Since things have been particularly difficult for us ever since we said "I do" we have been focusing on creating a marriage based on love, honesty and open communication. If we can't talk to each other about what is bothering us, how are we supposed to deal with it? When times get particularly stressful, we bicker (mostly about the most ridiculous things!) but we always get it resolved. He is my partner and I am his. We are trying to combat this world together, sending out as many positive vibes as possible and hoping the efforts will be rewarded with simple blessings - a job and a family. Almost two years in, we are still waiting. One day. One day it will get better. We can't chooose to think any other way. Right now, we are just overwhelmingly-thankful to have each other. We're slowly learning that not much else matters.

Our positive future

There comes a time in your life when you realize
Who matters,
Who never did,
Who won't anymore...
And who always will.
...So, don't worry about people from your past,
There's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

*And our future is so bright, it burns my eyes.*

I have been slowing shedding away the people that really don't have a purpose or a reason to be in my/our life. If you bring negative energy and drama, goodbye! If you are a one-sided friend and you are serving up a thick slice of guilt or obligation, see ya! If you are not willing to be happy with the choices I make for my own life, adios!

We need positive people, positive energy, positive outlooks. Nothing else matters.

Big joys

I found big joy in the little moments of my day today:

1. It was pay day. Although it comes like clockwork, it still is exciting. Reminds me why I spend more time at work than anywhere else in my life.
2. I have a few really close friends at work. The kind of friends you keep for a lifetime no matter what life happenings or space divides you. It's good to have true, blue friends.
3. It wasn't dark when I walked out of work at 5.30pm - hallelujah!
4. I came home to a clean kitchen and fresh-baked peanut butter cookies.
5. The moment I walked through the door I got one of my favorite hugs - the ones where he holds me until I am ready to let go. Depending on my day, I tend to linger there a little longer :)
6. The long-awaited cable was hooked up in the bedroom by my personal handy man.
7. I spent a couple hours organizing my office with the assistance of a very helpful husband. Every time I heard "now what can I do to help you, babe?" my heart fluttered a bit.
8. I gabbed it up with my sister-in-law. Sometimes, over the chatter of the girlies, we don't get much time to really talk. Not only did God give my brother the perfect companion, He gave me the sister I always wanted.

Looking at this list, I realized that I am lucky. Somedays it's harder to spot the joy, but it's always there waiting to be found.

One question:
Kevin, when you make these little gestures of love towards me, can you feel me falling for you all over again? Because I do, just a little bit more every time. It's during these moments that I feel our hearts are really connected. It's good to be with you.

Step 2

They say that if you don't like where you are at in life, change it. Take one step everyday in the right direction.

Well, I want a baby. So my first step in getting there is to get healthy. My first step in getting healthy was to significantly cutback on soda and stockup on good fluids like water and teas. Done. Turns out, I do not even crave it as much as I used to. I have decided a good compromise is to drink it only on the weekend. That way, I get 5 solid days in each week of good fluids. Bye, bye dehydration!

My second step is to take my vitamins. So, the entire month of March I will be choking down 4 vitamins per day, including folic acid. Five, if I can convince myself to buy a bottle of chewable vitamin C's. I like them too much and will basically eat them like candy (only the small ones, not the horse pills). No good, my friends. No good. However, I digress....they say that it takes 21 days to make or break a habit. March is 31 days so taking my vitamins should be a habit by then?? Yeah, we'll see. I know they are good for me but I just despise vitamins so. Perhaps because they are spendy for what you get? Anyway, on the bright side, I survived day 1 of step 2. Hopefully tomorrow will be the same :)